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I live across the street from several young families and an older man who appears in his fifties. They live at 13709 Mahoney Drive Dale City VA 22193. They all live in the same home. On several occasions while walking out to the car, taking out a small bag of trash, or just parking the car with a family member, I've gotten an array of harsh facial expressions from the men like anger, fear, or contempt. I took psychology class when I was younger so I know a bit about facial expressions.
I tried talking politely and calmly to one of the women there. At first she smiled but then after a second or two, her expression quickly turned to contempt - one raised eyebrow and half smile/smirk. She claimed after hearing every word I said, that she didn't know much English. One of the men there in his 50s does know English and has lived there for many years. He helped my father try to fix his car and my dad said he definitely knew English.
Anyway, I'll go ahead and say I have symptoms of cervical cancer and was told I may have it after a test I took was "positive". I have symptoms of late stage cancer in my opinion (i.e. severe back pain that comes and goes, abnormal feces, serious fatigue.) I can't afford to really see a doctor and have normal health care because I have learning disabilities. I was in special ed. for several years and always did poorly in school even when trying my best. I'm obviously Not* dyslexic and can type on a P.C. but do have learning disabilities and Major Depression, Anxiety that I was diagnosed with years ago. There's ways of course for me to get help but (to me) there's lots of "hoops" to jump through and I'm just tired of trying to get help. I'm done. I will say I also have symptoms of a rare disorder called Homocystinuria.
Homocystinuria symptoms that I have are a bent sternum, the highest myopia someone can have, high blood pressure, learning disability, major depression and anxiety. I was diagnosed with these things but didn't learn about Homocystinuria till just a year or so ago because I didn't know I might have it and never heard of it before. I was born in 1981 and I was never given a blood test at birth to see if I had it. I was born in Alexandria VA hospital so I don't think they gave those tests then but I read they Do these days. When I looked up info. about bent sternums, one of the things that causes it is Homocystinuria and I have several symptoms that point to it.
Anyway, due to my obvious cancer symptoms and a rare disorder, I have a lot of fatigue, depression, and anxiety. I have a license but can't drive. It took several times to pass to receive my license so I either walk, take the bus, or go with a family member like my father. Most of the time these days, I go with my father but we go short distances. When she's willing, I like to take my cat Missy Elizabeth. I know it's odd but she really does like it Once she's in the car. Anyway, I'll also add due to serious pain, and lack of means, I only had a couple of outfits to wear and sometimes would just wear the same outfit a lot because it was easier for me due to severe lower back pain. I tried to be as clean as I could be but couldn't afford more clothing. My older clothing eventually got holes in them so I need to throw most of them away. I was able to get some new clothes recently though. Anyway, so these neighbors see me with no car and lack of wardbrobe, and make their unfair judgments when I more than likely have CANCER. It just upsets me because they would rather give me dirty looks then ask what's wrong or if I'm okay. It seems like narcissism and psychopathy to continue to be judgmental without asking the person their questions. I will add I get my disorder from my mother. It's genetic on her side as far as symptoms go. She's never willing to get help though.
I think I brought this up earlier,